Oh sne's snapped

Well for my wonderful three followers, sorry for the lack of blogs. Currently I have been busy with absolutly nothing. From trying to find a job, to trying to finish a book or story. The wonderful adventures I have. Well, this blog is really a bitch complaint on myself. yay?
Well I went to my hometown Fort Stockton to escape the hell I like to call Abilene and my current home.What I have noticed is that this town, Abilene has litteraly drained the life out of me. I thrived on my own twisted mind and wrote and drew like a madwoman. I went through notebooks and sketchbooks like tissues. Now, I can't finish a notebook, I can't finish a page! I can't finish a sketchbook within a month's time span like i used to. Everything I used to decorate with favorate lyrics or random doodles of people dying to happy faries. Now... I don't care. I have no clue if this is growing up, or the fact that I lost my spark due to this town. Or maybe it is because I'm not filled with that teenage rage. I do not know, but I want that to change.